Be a positive cation?

I really dun wanna curse but FUCK! I'm down as the Assistant Oral Examiner for the whole two week plus! Nice name huh.. But the reality is that me and AA is just that to do shitty job.

YY says that it is normal that all new teachers kena this but do they kena for the whole 14 days, every single day??? (I forgot to mention i also kena the N'Lvel oral which is one week after the O'Level.. All the way till Aug..) I even have to rush back to school tomorrow from my convocation because tomorrow is the start of the oral. How crappy can that be. That means every single afternoon of the week is gone. Where am i suppose to find time to prepare for lesson? Stay till late night like what i did for the past few days again?? I can't discipline students when i dun have enough sleep!

That is not to mention i have to set like what, 3 tests by Week 3. As if that is not enough, my mentor wants me to squeeze time out to do remedial for my 2 and sec 3 kids. I would love to conduct the remedial but can someone tell me how am i suppose to get the time out for them when every afternoon of mine is gone???

Can still remember what my HOD says when i told him i may not be able to attend the meeting. He told me that the meeting starts at 12 plus and the oral thingy starts at 1 plus so i can still go. Damn it. Now i dun even have the time for my lunch. Is the school trying to kill the new teachers or what? It is only Day 3 and almost all the new teachers had taken MCs except for me and AA. AA mentions that if he starts to take MCs, it means he won't be coming back.

It is already a crappy day when i heard even more stupid thing from my CCA-in-charge. She asked me to come up with a chinese dance for the mid-autumn festival. Hello?! I thought they have instructor for that kind of thing?? I may used to be in dance but that does mean i know how to do it lor. If i can, then i would be a dance instructor by now. AA was laughing away when i told him about this. So mean!

There is one more thing that i must mention. When i was blogging that short entry this afternoon, a teacher pass by my seat and saw what i'm doing. He actually snorted at me! What the?? What is his problem? This is my laptop aren't it? It was my free period, so am i not entitled to do what i want? Felt like giving him a slap when he snort at me. In fact, i feel like stabbing them all. All thinking so highly of themselves.

Why do i always get crappy schools like this?

P/S: Eggie, pls tell me how to be a positive cation when you are in such a situation??

I fucking hate this laptop that i have been assigned to. Can't even type properly cos there seems to be something wrong with the keyboard. Damn it, i'm gonna be stuck with it for some time...

This is the 3rd day and again, i'm not able to go back before 6pm. I won't mind if the time had been put to good use. But it is not. I have to prepare for my lesson till late night everyday because my afternoon is screwed. And this is going to go on for the next 3 weeks. How idiotic. They expect beginning teachers to have the power of being at two places at the same time. How much things can we take on? Everyone wants us to be involved in their stuffs. But they never communicate! Everyone is saying that their matters are more important so which is more important??

I just wish to chop them all up..

The past few days..

In another few hours, i will in school having my first lesson in my new school. It is stressful and exciting at the same time. How can it not be? I need to teach tmr! It may not be my first time teaching but still...

I have not been blogging for a few days because i was rather down. I must thank Joel who tried so hard to cheer me up on Thu. Thanks for being my knight =)

On a different note, i went to a friend's wedding dinner just now. To me, it was more of a gathering than a wedding dinner. I was rather happily chatting away till i realised that a girl in the next table kept staring at me. Initially, i was rather puzzled why would she keep staring at me. It was not until i saw who is sitting beside her that i realised who she is. I saw my ex sitting beside her. Who is she, you ask. She is the very same girl who came between me and my ex few years ago. I used to hate her a lot. Hating her for shameless trying to be close to my bf even she knows he is attached to me then. Even more, because she had a bf herself then. But now, i can't even recognised her. She has not change a bit. Still trying to tell me that she had won in that race. She was trying very hard to flash her ring on her finger (my ex wore a similar one on his hand too) in front of me. She was still trying to give me the same victory smile she gave me years ago. I guess the only thing that is different is that i no longer care. I must admit she did affect me a lot in the past. I can still remember the scene where she was holding my ex's arm in front of me, giving me those loser smile after my ex broke up with me for her. But today, i just wanna tell her to get a life. What makes she thinks that i will still care. In fact, i think i should thank her. I shall not comment on what kind of a person my ex is. My friends would know. If not for her, i probably would still be with him, trying to accept everything. But now, i led a much better life. I have so many good friends around me. I think i'm bless. I can only say i'm glad that i walked away tonight smiling at her. It's not the same victory smile she is giving me but a smile to tell her that i'm living a great life.

I'm really thankful for this incident to happen, for it totally get me out of my depression mood which i'd being having for days. I realised that if i'd survived such a horrible past, there is nothing i cannot survived.

Here, i wanna thank my NIE friends for caring. Especially Joel and YY. Thanks YY for hearing so much of my nonsense for the past few days.

My China Trip - Part 3

Day 6

Finally we are back at Chengdu. We decided not to follow tour group anymore and get a little adventurous. We bought bus tickets and went to Le Shan ourselves to see the big buddha statue.

Anyone who had seen the movie "Feng Yun" would remember this place..

Finally, Le Shan Da Fou..

Some claimed to see the sleeping buddha with the outline of the mountains..

The trip to Le San pretty much ends my day and it is time to head back to the city again..



Day 7

First thing in the morning we visited Du Fu Cao Tang.

Then we went to Qing Yang Gong.

After that, we dedicated the whole day to shop in the shopping centers of Changdu! Yeah!!! Bought quite a number of stuffs (which makes me so broke now!) and did maicure and pedicure. Finally, we headed back to the hotel.

Day 8

We are taking the 4 plus flight back to Singapore and since we still have some time, we went to a market where they sell all sorts of things.

After that it is a 5 hours flight back to my beloved homeland, Singapore, again. Finally back. Miss my friends sooo much and my cute hamsters.

My China trip - Part 2

Day 3

It is another long day for we are going to spend the whole day at the fairyland, Jiu Zhai Gou! I was thinking that you guys would rather be looking at all the gorgeous picture rather than me blabbing.. So enjoy the photo!

It was raining damn heavily when we walk to this waterfall.. By then, i'm already soaking wet and super tired. The worse thing was we couldn't find our tour guide and our bus! We couldn't even remember our hotel name so we couldn't even take a cab. In end, we tried walking back to our hotel. Luckily it is not that far and we do managed to get back. Was a bit pissed with the agency for letting us walking back to the hotel but was too tired to argue with them. We quick bathed and rushed for our dinner at the hotel and then to the final entertainment for the night - a dance cultural night.


Day 4

It seems like i'm not gonna get any rest for we are going to climb a mountain today! And it is 4000m above sea level.. Oh no..

Those are pretty much the better picture for this place. Frankly i prefer Jiu Zhai Gou more (cos i dun have to walk so much! Imagine working out when the air is so thin..) Anyway, it is another rush day for us too. For the bus is gonna take 5 hours to drive from Huang Long to the hotel that we are gonna stay for the night. The rest of the night is pretty much spent inside the bus where i'm already knocking off.. Damn hungry and tired and we only get to eat our dinner at 10.30pm!


Day 5

There is really nothing much to say for today unless you wanna read me writing on how i spend half the day on the bus dreaming away.. If not, we shall skip to Day 6..